2020 : The Game changer… 🙉

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Coming to the last month of the year 2020, which is mostly been bashed badly by almost everyone, coz of the pandemic which started much earlier than this year & is still not taking a bit to slow down or vanish from our lives.

Being able to understand about what would come in my life in the coming months was beyond my imagination, while I was enjoying my Early New Year 2020 in January & crying a lil over the losses of 2019. What came after February was too scary af…

My dad’s sudden deteriorating health pushed me out of my Delhi apartment in a minute to reach my parents place asap, Lucknow. Went there, had seen him suffering in pain & af worried faces of mom & me. Believe me, had no idea of what this serious health condition would be treated in India (as there are no right doctors in India), except Dubai. Ofcourse, I couldn’t think of taking him abroad, instead find him an immediate solution. I am so glad, I did found a doctor, who deals in Ayurveda, but in Pune.

I asked him if he is able to counsel & guide us over phone call, & to be honest, I am so thankful to this doctor who was ready for everything we wanted at that time. My dad started taking medicines & precautions. He was asked to leave things which he loved the most. I cried heavily when the doctor was continuously telling me all the diet he would have to follow sans his favourite ingredients since childhood.

But the pain & tears I saw in my dad’s eyes for the disease came with it, made it worthwhile for us to understand that all we need is PRECAUTIONS!!!

My mom & dad made everything possible & he is fine, fit & healthy with all these precautions & dietary formulations.

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Talking about precautions, & here comes the announcement of Country Lockdown for the next few months which went from March till August, & slowly uplifting of lockdown, varied from state to state. Covid changed everything for me personally, professionally, financially, mentally, & emotionally.

I came back to Delhi asap & resumed working from home. I enjoyed working at home. I realised the utter happiness I had almost all the time for the initial 6 months – where I have always dreamt of working from home, which was not so common in India until Covid came in our lives. I was agressively working more than required, happily doing all the projects at office & did all the cooking experiments I would have thought that I cannot do them ever in my life.

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Dated online a lot of people, never met them, never shared a number with them, & I must tell you – Disappointments is synonymous to Indian guys. Embarassment is the other name of my feelings. Ahhhh we aren’t gonna talk about it. Losers. Assholes. Selfish people. This is how I would describe to all the guys I conversed in 2020. (If you are reading this, hey you, you can do the same about me, but to tell you, I am not sorry for saying this that you were toxic in my life, & it was a good decision to part my ways from you)

Online dating sucks for me. Until I found some amazing people too from there & we became online friends. 🎁🙉 I dunnow why but yeah it happened with me. Lol 😂

I will not discuss my work here coz Indians will take some time to understand the whole process of executing & streamlining all the departments in work from home culture. So till then RIP our offices. 🙄😉🙏😂😁👍

Woahhh, I got an amazing feel when I said RIP our Offices. Damn true 😹❤️

Lost a lot of money in this Covid to almost all unknown people online & believe me I got my lesson. Harder. For the better. 🥺🙏

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Professionally if I talk about I have started two pages of mine on Instagram. Infact, one was already there with the name – https://www.instagram.com/spacebetweenbreaks/

The only thing with this page was I fathom a lot to understand what I really want to do apart from my work & then I experimented a lot with my content to understand that Make-up & Beauty is what I love the most doing. 💖🌅🥳

Watch my Instagram

2020 wasn’t that bad as I got my very first big collaboration for an year with an Italian Beauty brand to freelance content for them. Its a slow race & my job would be to remain consistent in it. No matter what. ❤️

The other page, I started coz of the lovely people I have in my life who loved my cooking & coz of their support we made another food page in which I used to post a
lot of my experiments & short videos too… https://www.instagram.com/thequarantinecook5/

I might do a second post this year or might not. God knows. But I must write one thing I am thankful for the lessons this year has given me, more than what I learnt in my earlier years. This year is undoubtedly one of the game changers in my life.

It is the little things which make bigger things happen. Believe me, you all would have got good things with this year too, stop criticizing, start accepting the flow of life brings to you. Be happy with what you get. 🌅💖❤️🥺

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Stay happy ❤️ Stay inside ❤️ Happy New Year & Merry Christmas 🎄🎁🎉🎂

Much love – Nutannayan Nigam 🤗

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Dating in 2020… 🙆🏻‍♀️❤️✨

Reading that article heading, must have taken you all to some good and bad memories, while I am here to tell you all what has happened in these first 6 months of 2020 ✌️😁😃✨

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Bear with me, as this will not be a happiest of all, coz yeah people are crazy & suck at various instances. 😶

Dating in 2020 is like talking to someone virtually & not knowing exactly how a person is reacting to your things or their things. It’s difficult to understand but it’s fun when combined with video calls. Until they become hilarious after a point 😂 where you feel like disconnecting immediately after knowing the person better. (Coz of stupid reasons 😅)

First half of the year 2020 is gone for all of us. Few have found their partners while millions are still looking for someone special. Till now there is just one learning which I can confidently say…

“There is nothing called someone special. I believe if you have someone in your life who makes you a better version, who keeps you grounded, who keeps you feel safe & happy, who understands you, & most important, who accepts you the way you are… I think you should call that person to be yours.

Your someone special.” 💃✨❤️✨

One cannot search for someone special until you start becoming nice to others. The way you want yourself to be treated should be the way you treat them. 🙂✌️ Yeah read that again 🤭❤️✨

A letter to my Ex 💔🔥

You were my moon then, now you are just one lesson to my life ❣️

Dear Ex,

When you left me,

I had many things to ask…

I had many questions on my mind…

Lots of if’s & but’s

Your promises, my promises,

Your love letters & my room walls…

Our dream home with kids around,

A small knit family with love & care…

It was hard to overcome that day, that moment

When you simply went away or if I may you fled…

You told me that selfish is what you are becoming…

This was my first aspiration from you before you came in my life. ❤️ Sadly, this didn’t work out with you.

While I was simply giving you enough time to understand what you just said…

To make you realise, I chose to say just ok to you.

Never knew that ok of mine, would give you so much relief & move on phase in life that you will be married one day to someother’s life…

I must mention your wife stalks me all over social media.

She makes fake accounts to access what I am doing

She asks me stupid questions to know what happened wrong with us!

She told me that soon you will be a father to a beautiful lil kid ❤️ Congratulations 💞

But can you please give that sense of security to her so that she doesn’t have to scroll the pages of social media once again?

What kind of a husband you are who cannot make his own wife understand that he is hers. Not mine???

Why is it still my job to understand you & make things easy for you???

Sorry I was a puppet to you then, not now.

I won’t do things for you!

While you were leaving me, you messaged me:

“not every guy will be ****** or other bad guys u hd in ur past. there are nice people too. just get rid of the bad experiences of the past and try once , wd the guys chosen by your parents. things will be okay
take care. u r a fighter. and i m proud of how u have managed tough times always.”

It was tough in the beginning when I just started walking all alone by myself…

But with time, one thing has happened… I don’t have those feelings I had for you.

It’s all dead inside me. Neither I like someone nor dislike someone.

With time, I have few amazing people in my life who have helped me. Who are still helping me in making me realise “you were not the one for me”

To sum up for you guys… ❤️

Ever felt that you are still in a shock that someone has left you but then someone kind comes into your life & you start fascinating about him that maybe he is the one.

Well, happens to me too. But in reality, it’s just an assumption. Wait for your time zone & good people will come in your life too. 🤗

Just thinking about it!!!

© Nutannayan Nigam ❤️

Heal with someone… 🤗❤️

Thought of writing what I have always wanted to do. As if this is that one thing which keeps me glued to this content writing role.

I love to write. I love my role of being a content writer. I love when I can influence people with my piece of writing. I love when I get support from people. I love it when I can truly express my life into this short span of time with you all.

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I thought of not telling you this time to actually be alone & love your own company. Instead I thought you to remain involved in some or the other things, people or activities. If you really want to forget things which don’t matter your present, then you must do efforts in moving beyond them.

You should meet people. You should talk to atleast to someone. You should participate in social groups & activities. You should try to work upon your new skills. Try to enhance yourself with few new courses or maybe long loved & lost habits or hobbies that once you have left coz of someone’s love or disinterest.

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I know it remains a true fact that you can’t give away that special corner of your heart to anyone or someone who sees you first. But I think this is more important if you can take one day at a time. If you could really heal yourself on a regular basis. If you could bless yourself each day that you are safe & happy. If you could thank yourself, for whatever you have. Your parents, your siblings, your pets, your friends, or maybe new best friend. ❤️🤗

Going through a chaotic phase in your life calls naturally for one to remain aloof & alone. Where most of the time what we do is remain calm, do not talk much, remain stuck in life, too afraid to even think about future & perspectives are all hazy!

It’s ok. ❤️

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Trust me, it’s alright to feel whatever you are feeling today. It happens to all of us. This is the healing process level one, where you need to heal up from these things & your acceptance level has to be this way that it somehow gives you strength that yes you are healing on a regular basis.

It’s important to be with someone who keeps you away from all those negativities. It’s ok to go & talk to new people. Going to the old people consoles you but going to the new people, actually gives you 5 times high in life as when people are new to each other they don’t impose anything. They transmit happiness. They inspire you. They love you. They accept you for who you are. They give that personal space which you should get. They talk about everything except that hurts you coz they are unaware. 🤗💃❤️

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Healing is a process 🙏 Please don’t shy away from healing up yourself. It’s alright to love others but its equally important to love yourself too. As I am in a phase of healing, thought to share with you all that it was difficult one year back, it was difficult six months back, it was terrible two months back, it was hell last week. Still if I can come up & actually tell you that it will all be over. All your sufferings will be gone with time, with good people around, believe me – it’s alright.

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Coz I have heard, if God takes one person away from your life,

Its because he doesn’t deserves you.

Instead a better person deserves you more. A better person. The best one actually. 🤗❤️❣️👍🙏

#lovelove

©️ Nutannayan Nigam ❤️

It wasn’t easy, but now it is… ❤️🤗🤓😬

It’s getting awkward day by day. I miss you every now & then. It’s tough & I know it will be go through hard with time. It has affected my health badly, has converted me to a person I was never earlier, God it’s tough.

Not a single morning, nor any night went by when I didn’t miss you & my pillow didn’t feel how much I feel for you. My tears are a constant proof how badly I m hurt & torn apart.

You knew that I was not ready when you left me. It was too sudden. You just dropped a message that it’s over. Didn’t even bother to call me & tell me that it’s getting over.

So many years of my life, I was thinking about us, about u & your family becoming our family. After years of promises, you left! That’s shocking.

That’s sad. That’s a sudden demise of my well planned dreams with you. That shatters the sounds of Amyra crying for us! Believe me, all is broken.

Our home is broken,

Our world is broken,

Our dreams are unfilled,

Our happiness are sorrowful,

Our smiles are over,

Our heartbeats have been lower,

Our health issues are graver,

Our mental stresses are higher,

Too much complications,

In this short span of life.

This transforms me to going to some bad choices & I personally don’t want to do that. I still love you. A lot.

Hopeless? Yes I am.

Loneliness is killing me. I need someone who can help me out with things in life. It can be a girl or a boy. But shouldn’t judge us or u or even me. As with time, good things only are sidelined.

Many years have went by & we realise how precious things are for us once you lose it. Anyways good to know how original remains less famous; while secondary choices remain in air.

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This article I wrote in the year 2019, sooner you left us. Just publishing it today frees me to finally accept that –

You were an asshole.

You were the same as other men.

You were immature.

You were inclined towards patriarchal blessing.

You were not happy with an ambitious person.

You never appreciated me pursuing higher studies.

You never appreciated whenever I did something in life.

You always wanted a house wife who would be just a puppet to you.

Listen, my mom hates you. Completely. Asshole. Whatever I did, it was all right. Thank God 🙏 I am no more in touch with you.

Such parasites should be all away from me & my family, who don’t know how to respect others.

Conservative society – Thank you for winning this game. Sparing me from becoming a middle class house wife. Thanks a ton! 👍😊🙏

Living the best life on my own… 😬❤️😄🤗

#lovelove

~ Nutannayan Nigam

Hope around Quarantine… ❤️

Lockdown, self isolation & quarantine – all together have summed up my life so well. Never thought I would be able to live this life ever with myself alone. Completely where I will be responsible for all my mood swings & repurcussions.

“To be able to wakeup every day is a bliss!”

I am so thankful for this whole period of Lockdown in making me believe in my dreams & aspirations. In making me believe that yes indeed family is the only one institution where one can firmly stick around & feel overwhelmed at the same time.

Staying away from family creates a lot of mess as well as a sense of responsibility within each person to go ahead & work it out for yourself. Be it household chores or simple grocery purchase, I have learnt so many things I can’t put in today.

I called up my mom few days back & actually thanked her for how nicely she has been maintaining us, home & herself. I wonder how bravely our moms handle their mood swings, depression & our continuous demands & childishness. Thank you Mumma for being a true support system always 🥺🥺🥺🙏😭

“Thank you Mom & Dad for being my strength 🙏❣️”

Having said this I wish each one of us are safe & staying inside our homes & making sure that we are thankful to our parents both mom & dad who are there for us. No matter what. I am so so overwhelmed with their response always – Available is what their status says each minute for me. Where my misbehaviour is not carried forward instead is over looked upon while they hide it in their hearts so that I don’t look sad upon myself.

Today, as I stand ill in this tiring situation having viral fever, body ache, unable to do simple tasks in my kitchen, too much effort is been taken to even to getup from my bed, where I am throwing up every now & then, medications aren’t helping. One thing has been engraved so well in my mind is that it’s just your parents who are literally every inch worried – concerned & praying for your well being. No one other than them have this supreme command over you – Love your parents ❤️🙏

“Just be kind, & good things will follow…”

As I remind myself of all this, I also would like to cite one thing that I miss that someone special as well in my life who had been a wonderful past over the years for me. What a man he was who handled not just me, but my parents & himself so well, that all went smooth for me. I fall sick quite often but his presence in my life added that hope within me 🙏 that God I wanna be ok asap.

Where ever you are, I hope you are still the same caring & loving for your person man… You have been a wonderful person for me in the last 5 years & I have not met a person like you anytime… 😄🌅❤️

“Believe me, it’s just you & inner soul which can do the magic”

Good people are hard to find. Good people are harder to be kept with you. Be thankful to each & every person who is taking care of you guys. This life is once given, should be valued forever. ❣️🙏😊

Stay safe. Stay healthy 🙌

This too shall pass. #lovelove

~Nutannayan Nigam ❤️

We know, But still we hurt each other! 😃🎉♥️🙆🏻‍♀️

I am sure there would have been a phase in your life where you thought, “Damn, I shouldn’t have done that!”

Relatable? For me, it comes every 15 days, every week or maybe every day. 🙆🏻‍♀️🙄

Clumsy, awful! 🎀🙆🏻‍♀️🙊

Beginning with the very first blog for the year 2020, I wish a very very Happy New year to you and your family guys… ♥️🎀🎉🎉 Thank you for everything & making me what I am today! 😃🎉🧁

Well, I really think each time the same shit happens that why the fuck I do it always! Why! 😂😂😂🙄🙄🙄😫

The incident breaks you, the activity has consequences which you weren’t ready for, then why? 🙆🏻‍♀️

Thinking all the while, I have come to a realisation today that maybe we are too optimistic about ourselves that we will manage it even if all things go wrong.

Maybe, we are too used to the idea of being upset or being thoughtful about our lives that we engage well without thinking about the circumstances… 🤐😲😰

There was a guy who told me that I have stood in his low times & have been silently supporting him. I relied to what he said & promised to be there ALWAYS! ♥️🎀

Seems to be a happy story???

But there has to be some drama so for that this guy now has stopped messaging me, stopped every lil thing he used to do for the friendship or the relation we held, has totally got carried away with the rosy things of his life & coming back after 36/48 hours to drop me a “attendance message” to remind me of his existence.

My understanding from this incident is :

1. Was I a backup?
2. Was I a pillow to someone’s life?
3. My life changed after we started talking on a daily basis and I must tell you that we were inseparable.
4. My routine had him & he is not there.
5. I tried twice, thrice to make him understand what I feel, but that sorry thing soothes me, though it actually says “Hey pretty, don’t trust him. He will repeat this again.”
6. It is true that the same behaviour is being repeated.
7. I wait for him whole night, for him to message or call. But no.
8. I value him, my friends, my people.
9. I genuinely show up for them in their distress.
10. I like to be social about my things with the people whom I love.

But I am at a loss Everytime. All 2019 went by understanding each other. Be it friends or boyfriend’s, or people. But this 2020, I have promised myself not to take this “SAME SHIT” ANYMORE.

Dear Girls,

If a guy comes up & says that he wants to be with you, don’t trust him on his face value & most importantly, don’t trust their words. Don’t give away your heart so easily 💔

Understand them.

Their life. Their pattern.

If they value you, they will find ways to be with you.

If you are his priority, he will keep you above anything in this world.

If you think you are being demeaned in any relationship, don’t beg for him to stay. It’s high time. 🎉

Don’t knock the wrong door & expect for a hug from the other side. No one will come. Realities are a safer version to avoid last minute arrangements in your heart. ♥️🎀

~Nutannayan Nigam

#lovelove

Lessons learnt in 2019 🎀⛄🙆🏻‍♀️😃🙋🎉😊

Hello everyone, as you can get an idea so easily what will be the whole blog about today… I will not take much time to unveil the hidden stories for this year 2019, which in a day or two is bidding adieu! 😃🎉🎉🎉🙋

Dear 2019,

You came with lots of hopes in my life, literally many of them. Honestly. Professional front got sorted so well & I am able to achieve & showcase what my dearest capabilities behold. My family got stable & they are happy by all God’s grace. 🧁♥️😊

Personally, I have gone through a lot of learnings. Trust me, these many things would ever happen to me, that too back to back, never ever thought or even imagined in my wildest dreams. 🙄

But as they say, I am thankful to each & every day which made me get up, stand up & walk out of those miseries asap! 🙋🎉

There was a new year celebration with a guy whom I thought Will be mine & we will make it through. But then he got married to someone else recently. 😄😊🎉🙆🏻‍♀️

That’s life. 🎀

Slowly I moved ahead to fall in love with a guy who lives far across & it hence became a long distance relationship… LDRs are never an easy ones to handle, so before I fall for him, my family & me suggested myself to first go & meet the guy first..we met, we talked, all was ok but still not ok.

I am not a doll to play with & not a person whom you will call later part of the nights – it eventually has to get over. Indeed. 🎀

Came another one with lots of positivity to make my life better & a promise to marry me. It was a bubble, oh! ⛄🎉 He fled in a week or two, now he just regrets the decisions he took to leave me & ran away with the fear of commitments. That’s life 🎀😊

Sweet childhood crush 😍 Do you have any? 😃😄🧁😃😍💃
Well I had one & believe me, would you not give your life another chance if he comes over & says I love you. ♥️🙄🎀🎉

I said, YES… 🙈🎉

BELIEVE ME, its not easy. Its not. From being super unsecured, terrible living alone to the fact that things will not turn up better… This I pushed away harder from my life.

Choosing me & my happiness is My Right. Not of my partner. So i chose my self respect, my values. With lot of learnings & what not… 😄🎉🎀😍

To conclude my last blog of this Year 2019, I learnt :
• Your parents were true if they said don’t roam late at nights. Its not safe.
• Your parents were right if they ever told you not to stay at your friends place.
• Your parents are the real friends & welll wishers who genuinely want THE GOOD FOR YOU.
• Care as much as you can for your parents.
• Pamper yourself. Give yourself the time to heal, repair & shine.
• Don’t leave your hobbies. Keep doing what you used to do, coz you should do.
• Don’t fall for false & rosy promises; they are meant to be broken.
• Don’t become someone’s girlfriend, become somebody’s wife. 🎀♥️

With this, wishing you all a very Happy New Year 2020 in advance!!! 😍🎀🎀🎉🎉😄😄♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️💃💃💃💃🎀😍🎉

An year is just a matter of time, but this time will not come back, so choose your priorties wisely.

Happy New Year 🎉❣️

Nutannayan Nigam

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#lovelove

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Love is more important than Ego… But… ❤️

There were two strangers, who became friends over Facebook… Like usual starting for any couple, they too started off over Facebook, then WhatsApp chatting & it started. Yes the love sparked between the two… 🙈🌸

Since the girl wasn’t sure whether this feeling of getting butterflies for some stranger whom she hasn’t even met before is right or not, she decided to meet him up before she goes on to say, I love you too… She went to meet him from one pole to another. But she went. ❤️

Had love been not important than her ego, she wouldn’t have gone ahead & the guy would have been pleading for more months to say some answer. To stop all this, she went & said I love you right infront of him. 💕🙋

Had her ego been important than him, she would have stayed back to her place. She would wait for him to come over & meet her & then propose her. But no, she didn’t do that. She managed on her own & with full pride she said that she is in love with him.

Today after 15 days post her visit, they both are no more together. Yes.

Reason: His ego is so important than her that the girl is suffering for his love, for his care, for him to miss her, for him to really understand that love & relationship are much more important than the ego!

But she tried… She texted him to say sorry & the things can be back to normal. But the guy is full immersed that he won’t say sorry & that his ego & attitude is so important.

The girl cried to her fullest.

The whole world cried at their separation like this.

Once who was someone’s princess, now is nothing to him.

Once for whom this relationship meant everything, now gives a damn about it.

The girl couldn’t believe what to tell her parents who are waiting for both of them to come home & talk finally about marriage.

Now the girl is all torn apart again coz of this guy. Coz he loves more his ego than anything.

Just wanna tell you all,

What is the point of having or initiating such relationship where you know your ego is important…?

Why ask someone to come & love you?

Is ego so much important that you can’t even open up to your heart?

How much would you hurt people?

How much! 🧘😑

Will this girl ever believe in love?

No… This is the right answer. Coz now for her parent’s choice is the best. For him, ego played the perfect angel in breaking away this sweet relationship. 🧘😑😭

#lovelove

~Nutan

(The characters are fictitious, don’t hold any importance to my life)

What if everything becomes perfect! 💕🤩

Hey everyone, it has been a long time to the WordPress community I have interacted with & thanks Julia & many others who have followed my blog site. Highly indebted for your support! 😃😊🤟

I was just thinking a while back that is it possible to have a world which seems perfect?

Possibly no is the answer. But just imagine for a day, what if all the work that you have pendency for & you are completing it without your boss’s nagging, imagine you are getting up late at home & your mum serves you the perfect breakfast as soon as you take a shower, imagine your husband takes a day off & keeps home vacationing with you! 💕

These are some possible nuances which I am sure have brought a perfect smile to your face as I am smiling too… 😄

Things wouldn’t have been so messy as they are in our heads Currently. Loving someone wouldn’t have been so difficult as it appears today. Going through a heartbreak & then loving someone, accepting someone, that he will not cheat on you, that after making promises to get married, he breaks it off, saying I can’t do it. I am sorry.

What if this sorry my heart accepts so finely & it doesn’t affects me, I would have been the same bubbly chirpy Nutan as I was before. I am trying so hard each day to be lively & happy as Glee as beautiful flowers would be. 😍

I still remember how hard you wanted me to be your wife & then suddenly you said No. You just went. Thinking that I always managed things in my life, you simply left. It’s hard to find a person who holds you like his own, who can understand you, instead of telling you to understand him, its too much on me… Pheewwwww… 😯

Now when someone walks up to me & says that he wants me to be his partner, I out rightly reject. Quite obvious that I am scared. Hell lot scared. People call it off after getting engaged & just another tragic end to a fairy tale… Am I ready? The answer is No.

This brings me to ask one question what if things become perfect in our lives & people begin to take care of each other whom they love & not hurt them. Living with someone & spending their rest of lives with that person is totally a choice. But leaving someone in the middle of the lurch for someone else isn’t cool.

We always see that the grass is always greener on the other side & we walk away from the person you always thought of. The same person who always waits for you, who always takes care of you, who always cared for you, who always made sure you are not hurt, you suddenly left her! 😶

Let me tell you all one important thing – The grass is not always greener on the other side, it’s always greener where you water it. 💕🤟

Its Upto you whether you chose her or the other, but trust me it hurts, when you choose her over me! 🙈

#lovelove

~Nutan Nayan Nigam

Founder & Creator at Space Between Breaks

I have… 💕

I have cried so much in your absence,
that now no one can ever fill that void.
i have lived so much alone,
that now i don’t enjoy anyone’s company.
i have waited for you so much,
that now i am afraid to wait for someone else.
i have loved you so much,
that now I am scared to love anyone else.
i have missed you so much,
that now i know i am not a Miss World where somebody would miss me the same way as u used to do.
i have been treated as a princess by you then,
that now No one can match the level of concern you had for me.
i have always thought you will always be there for me,
that now when someone promises the same, I only say, its never gonna happen & that i never wanna smile again from my heart.
i cared for you so much,
that now i cry if i do even 5% of efforts for the other person & he doesn’t reciprocates.
it hurts my beloved.
you left me all alone here, in this cruel world,
telling me that You will be alright one day.
i am unable to be ok baby. i am dying inside.
but i have to be ok.
its all over. it is. it will be. forever ❤️ closed.